Climbing

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As I was climbing a crumbling rock and dirt face with Miles, I told him that I had had a dream a few nights before that an old friend and I were climbing a similar crumbling rock face and that I was able to climb it in the dream but that the friend was not.

"Now you're the powerful one, Mommy," Miles said.

Whoa.  

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  1. UnknownJuly 1, 2015 at 7:59 PM

    Despite my acceptance to the fact that in most cases I'm powerless over much and more in this world I like to think I'm powerful in certain situations or aspects. I bet when Miles said that to you it was uplifting. Yet how does one climb a falling rock and why was your friend unable to do so?

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    1. SariahJuly 4, 2015 at 9:40 AM

      The rock wasn't sheer; it was at a slight angle, which made it a little easier to climb and I guess Miles and I just climbed it carefully, trying to find the more solid parts to stand on and hold on to.

      The friend in the dream was a an ex-boyfriend who is a rock-climbing guide. It is significant to me that, though he is an "expert" on rock-climbing and I am not, in the dream I was able to climb the rock and he wasn't. Also, the fact that we were climbing rock that one is not supposed to climb, crumbling rock, was significant: I could do something that "authorities" say not to do and the "authority" could not. The fact that I was "powerful" in this situation where I was not supposed to have power also represents moving beyond letting myself be controlled, manipulated, and overly submissive in relationships (not just romantic relationships but all relationships). I have had a pattern of letting myself be controlled in relationships, including the relationship with the guy who is a rock-climbing guide, and this dream indicates a shift of personal power to let myself move beyond being controlled and to take steps to stand up for myself instead.

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